My Great Love

I'm thinking to build a blog of us long time a go. I'm the person the person who teach her how to use this blog. I just don't have to do so, since I'm busy with with my previous study life.

The first blog she wrote is about us I'm so happy to see that blog. She really the one for me. That we are the most happy couple in the world. Everyday I'm just waiting her back from Hong Kong. Every time waiting he comeback in the most excited moment, seeing her come bakc i am the happiest person in the world. I still remember the first time she come back. We both very very happy to see each other. I'm always miss her and love her so much, since the first day we met.

Now everything has changed love and my carrier. I change my future profession even i love it so much. I dreamed to be a successful young architect. I did all this just because i am pursuit for something that we call love. Am i stupid?

I'm plan to to have an faster income. I'm start to working part time as research assistant, just to get a notes so that i can gave her a call every where she went and spend when she came back. she always special for me. Last time I'm very skeptical with direct sale but I'm in it now. I'm doing two job at the same time now. Might be three on the new years since I'm thinking to take this opportunity to get master degree. First I'm not dare to tell her all this plan because i don want its a hope because its involve so many people. I have hope to tell her but I'm just scare i can not get it.

Is it too late for me to do all this? Is too late for me to tell her this? I doing all this just to make anyone happy mostly my sweet girlfriend, my Baby. This my dream i trying to make everyone happy, mostly my girlfriend, even my target to marry her at my age 28 still blur but i never stop pursuing it and building it now. I'm just felt so sad after i change everything, its not going accordingly what i plan.

I'm planing to have great celebration on 2010's Chinese New Year with my love one especially my girlfriend. Love changed. But my love never change, its maintain like the great Everest keep giving the energy and supporting this love. I never felt tired to love her, to take care of her, to miss her even a long wait for her return to PNG.

Since the first day I'm supporting her to pursue her dream to Hong Kong, my love never change even i know its gonna be challenging for us to maintain our love if she is there. with positive and optimistic mind i let and support her to go there. I love her just like i love myself. Now i have changed, i have to face this fear, fear of losing someone I'm really love.

I have to let this feeling go even its hard for me. I don't want to see she unhappy when im around. Be honestly her smile is like a key to lock my heart, its too perfect like the Queen. I still can feel love from her. I know she still love me too. Maybe she just need time to figure it out what she wanted for her life. I just need her to complete my life now. Without her is like im flying without wings. Now i know why a king built a sky garden of Babylon for the love one, built a tomb of Taj Mahal just for their love one to rest in peace.

I'm do not have much things to do for myself. But i have a big dream for to make this world a better place for her. Day by day we go through, she at HK im at PNG. My love grow stronger as high as the sky blue, as deep as my heart holding her her. Every morinig is her morning, every night is her. Awake, asleep, no matter where am i, what am i doing she always in my heart.

At the begining, I never thought that i'll fall in love to her. The first time we meet im look at her, Im start to like her. I felt a pleasant feeling, she like an angel. but i cheated myself i just said this is just a feeling of adolescent, nothing i could do with this feeling. I start to recommend her to my fren, Ben Chong. haha.... Ben Chong say he don like her. Then i ask why? Then he laugh and said she not pretty enuf him. But then i said she better then the girl that Ben Chong like, actually i am the person who really like her.

Then day after day we went out together for lunch and dinner(mostly), day by day I'm learning to approach her. Until the time I'm start to miss her, we start to message to each other. My love grow day by day. I'm really happy if i can see her. i start to miss her. The first time i met her one by one, when Ben Chong and me plan to go to have a night chit chat at the playground with her friends and her. After that i be there but no body comes just she come. That the first time we meet then we talk to each other start to know each other deeper.

After that I'm taking the next step to date her. Then that night the first time i date her, we sat on the sit up chair and talking to each other. That night was so windy, the sky was so clear, we can see the star. What the beautiful and sweet night. We start knowing each other deeper. She talking her final project I'm talking about my studio work. I'm was so surprise that she is the director for their final project. We were getting closer and closer.

The funny thing is that after watch football with Narong I'm still went back to the Mamak's restaurant(istemewa) just purposely to see the culry hair girl with the green shirt. Then gave the reason come down to buy a bread for breakfast. She really gorgeous that night. I'm so happy. We getting understand her, she really the girl that im looking for. I really like a attitude, her confidence, her beautya and her honest. I can see the light from her that perfect for me. I made up my mind, i'll chase her and be her boyfriend as soon as posible.

That is before Chinese New Near,

will be continue...

I love you forever my baby...no one can take your place...in my heart you are very special and perfect for me... miss you always